Shut UP!

Moods are a pain in the ass. I don't like them. One thing I quite liked about being single was that I could let stuff out more. Maybe thats because I was more open with how I felt about people? Now though, I seem to be finding that I like more people less and less. That probably makes no sense but... as in; people frustrate me. LOTS. Its annoying that now I have a select few friends that I find enjoyable conversation. Maybe thats bad. Don't go getting paranoid that I hate you all, thats just silly.
Its undeniable however, that I'm separating myself from people whom I've known for long periods of time. Though what you would define as long is beyond me. Everything seems to go so quickly now.
I actually cannot wait for summer. I'm going to spend the majority of it indoors, lots of it with Rachel, some of it writing, and the rest of it with the rest of yous whom I don't mind quite so much. Methinks that the evil one is having a little too much to say here but hey.
I have a poster in my room that I made. I'm not sure whether I should be sharing the meaning of it with you all but who cares. It's coloured entirely in black, with a small rectangle of white paper in the middle containing various shapes inside. It's supposed to be representative of my interior. Unfortunately, the only part I show is from the rectangular centre. It's a little room containing all the things close to me. It stands to reason that everything outside is simply
Black.

Confusion, madness, muffins.

life closes a few doors for some people and opens a window
life opens a door for me but closes all the windows
how am i supposed to know how to feel anymore
i worry that i might be in too deep, or doing somethign wrong
the only thing i know is that some part of me, likes you.

the only thing is i don't know whether it is strong enough to fight back the egotism the paranoia the chaos that swamps my head normally

hell i have to be egotistical sometimes
its the only thing that can ground whats inside to whats outside
the paranoia certainly doesn't

on a side note this muffin still tastes good after being left out for three days
HURRAH FOR MODERN PRESERVITIVES

oh

And the story needs a completely invented language, with grammatical structures etc, which is going to ACTUALLY take ages. So um, I could be here a while. I have only got about 8 words,
Ashithá metó, cufra thé, lofra né, goto thé
although i realise that two of those words are the same. It's a little poem meaning
Tomorrows world, changes you, high men, glorify you. =D
I've actually got a few other words :O
ke - women
neth-man
kath-woman
=]
thé- you
ashitha- tomorrow (ashithá is tomorrows)
metó - world
cufrar - to change
lofra - high
gotor - to glorify/embellish.

woo.
joyous.
don't even ask lmao

I don't even know hello and goodbye yet haha.
oh wells.

Alasdair Has A Story

Yeah, I know I say this lots
all the time
but I actually have a story idea =]. It's a little odd and different, but then again that could be a good thing.
It's a romance/fantasy/sci-fi thing, but that doesn't really explain much. or anything.
All I'm going to say for now, is it's happy, with a sad storyline, and a sad/happy ending depending on how you see it.
You're welcome to ask for a plot summary and then give me feedback, or ideas etc =] twould be much appreciated, but I'm unwilling to post that up here where any no-gooder can read it.
So yeah
perhaps I'll type up the first chapter when I've finished writing it =] and then you can give me thoughts on that. I quite like it - but then I would I guess haha.
Well,
thats all for now =]
Bubye from me!
and me.

peace

Love is something you find in the most unusual places .

It's also something you find at the most unusual times, right when you never though you would find it. It's something you can never be told about, something you can never hear, or see.

It's only something you can feel.

Sometimes you'll feel it with someone who doesn't feel it back, and when it's like that it's a horrible thing. We try to seal ourselves away from love just to make ourselves feel a little better so that we can get up every day.

Then we repeat this cycle again and and again become more sealed away every time. 

But then, someone loves you back, some of us get lucky and meet them first, other's have to wait and wait. You never realise that your gonna find that person, not until you do. 

You never believe you going to feel that way until you do. 

Once the cycle is broken things start to get better, even if what you feel wilts and dies, even if it lasts a lifetime. In the end you know that you aren't unloveable and you aren't alone and you know that one night can change a lifetime.

humph

alasdair is about to be sued for a DMCA violation

SEE YOU IN COURT BUB

hes just jealous 'cause my life is looking up and of  my superious sexyness

AT LEAST IM NOT WALKING FOLIAGE

humph

imma go talk to ben...

GAWD DAMN IT HES BEING MEAN WITH PHOTOS TOO

;_;

everyones picking on me today 

how gay...

It's finally friday

Yes! It appears that the day has finally come! and it's already going quite well - Bleach and Naruto are both uploaded, RACHEL'S BACK, I have a free house, Chris is fairly happy, and I have no football training tonight! =] woooo. Haha.
But
I didn't go to sleep until about 5ish last night....
I was lying in bed watchin anime, then I must've fallen asleep around 2-3 and
I woke up at about 6... at which point I turned off my computer and went to sleep. So now I'm really tired. I may go and have some more lasagne.... I think I need to do some revision too, but I'm really not in the mood :S but to be honest, I wasn't in the mood yesterday either and coincidentally my parents are away so...
Oh well.
I think the milkman may have come this morning. I must check haha.
I have some pictures that I intend to upload onto facebook

lookie lookie! it's arnold rimmer and chris!
or, is it the other way round?

come onnn, they look at least a LITTLE similar right?
right?

Desho?!

fiiiine
okay, but it's fun to say anyway =]


I'm just about done yeah?
WOW no alternate me's this time!
damn straight
or as chris says
Damn gay
;)
byebye.