It's a new dawn

It's a new day,
It's a new life,
For me
And I'm feeling...

Not that great actually.

I'm not a sun lover myself. You might have noticed. I'm not someone who goes out by choice and gets suntanned. You're effectively cooking yourself. Wth? Though, nor am I someone who goes into the sun and screams in pain before being vapourised (I.e. I'm not a vampire) Nor do I sparkle. For all you weirdos who think THAT constitutes a vampire.

It's interesting, the number of people who say 'Oh I am SO English, in winter it's too cold, in summer it's to hot.'

Then there's me, who is typically half Scottish, half English - a weird combination that means whatever the weather, I know it won't be satisfactory, and regardless I'll be miserable. Reminds me of someone saying about the glasgow bombings, how the guy who stopped them, saved hundreds of people being burnt. You have to remember, these were SCOTS on their way to SPAIN.

Enjoy.

So

I was in school today obviously, it's a weekday and I was just leaving when some kid yelled at me 'you're on youtube'. This isn't too weird- I am indeed on youtube, but the fact that a year 10/11 who I don't know, knows that I'm on youtube is a little weird. I guess it's natural that people will see me on there, that's the point, and I guess I want people to watch, otherwise I wouldn't put up video's, but it's still weird.
I haven't put up any video's in a while, it's not that I haven't filmed them, on the contrary, I've got guest fridays with Irene and Becca from before I had my new camera, and I've even filmed another song, 2 vlogs and a adventure of the man with the one track mind, I just haven't edited them yet, and currently my parents are pressuring me into revising, and my video editing time is being eaten up by doing a video for school, the introduction to which is now finished :D hopefully.

I added a couple of little features to the blog, one being that you can vote on what you think of the blog posts, funny, boring or interesting. The second being that there is a poll in the top right. Obviously I encourage you to use these features, I like seeing what people think, and most people can't be bothered to comment, so all you need to do is click =]

So it's goodbye from me and it's goodbye from him.

How would you draw a nightmare and other weird questions

I've always wondered if or when someone would invent a new colour. It's not beyond the realms of possibility, we assume that in our omniscient world we are aware of all the colours, but I'd like to think that there's more that we just haven't found yet.

Additionally, how would you draw a nightmare? I don't mean draw something that happened in a nightmare, that would be simple, or draw someone's greatest fear/worst day, which could also be deemed a 'nightmare', I mean the hysteria of something unseen that you just can't quite remember when you wake up, but you know terrified you while you were asleep.

I used to think when I was younger, that everyone saw the world differently, and saw people differently. So for example, I might see someone as tall, dark and blonde haired called James, and someone else might see them as short, pale and brown haired called Fred, so everyone could exist, but exist differently in each others worlds. It would explain why people fall in love with different people, someone I might find really unattractive could be really attractive to someone else and so on.

Finally, I know this is quite a common idea, sometimes used in films and books (even music video's occasionally [see 'In The Shadows - The Rasmus]) What if there were another world on the other side of mirrors. I know potentially impossible, the proportional constraints of mirrors would obviously mean that, unless a particularly deep mirror, you might be able to have an ant or something of similar size. But mirrors are often likened to water, and vice-versa, occasionally used as portals to different dimensions in sci-fi films, but what if it were possible? What would be behind it? Or would it be two copies of our world, where people looking in mirrors was synchronised exactly, but other events were opposite?

It's been almost a year since I last posted, and I figured that seeing as it's nearly the end of school forever, I should probably update a bit. Rawr, Alasdair disapproves of nostalgia and angst ¬¬ and thinks that this will be the only time anyone will hear him say 'BRING ON SUMMER'

If only to escape from the parental constraints, educational limitations, and the odeon. Grr.

MUST BLOG TEMPTATIONS OVERWHELMING

so ie always been a little bit of a gossip whore well connected etc 

while everyone else was out making a tard of themselves i was always filing it away in my head for future blackmail and lemme tell you something having a big network has always been useful but yeah im digressing its just that most things that you think i wont find out ill either figure out from someone else or ill just read you until i know what it is

now you might be thinking OH WHAT ITS THIS DELICIOUSLY TANTALISING PEICE OF GOSSIP THEN? well tbh its non existant i just feel like blogging about the immaturity of some people

not a bitchy post mind you

its just i find it immature when people are always declaring undying love for someone

im not bitter and im not scorned(much :p) its just that love a first sight isnt real and its getting annoying the amount of people im dealing with at this point who are convinced it will happen 

love is a delicate flower damaged by almost everything 

thats why people only love one person for their entire life its because that flower was fortunate to resist the harsh environment of a human heart 

love takes time to grow too, a long time in my experiance. it grows in the strangest of places too and when you finally give up on love youll look inside your heart and see it growing from say, the ceiling? 

my prognosis to you lovesick fools?

stop trying so hard and just let it happen you wont find love by looking for it stop ruling people out and simply live by your own means love isnt about depending on someone, its about sharing all the things in your life with another, good or bad.

muaha

Okay, so this post is just random pictures I made =P Teme what yous think?. And also some other random imaaages :P

Shut UP!

Moods are a pain in the ass. I don't like them. One thing I quite liked about being single was that I could let stuff out more. Maybe thats because I was more open with how I felt about people? Now though, I seem to be finding that I like more people less and less. That probably makes no sense but... as in; people frustrate me. LOTS. Its annoying that now I have a select few friends that I find enjoyable conversation. Maybe thats bad. Don't go getting paranoid that I hate you all, thats just silly.
Its undeniable however, that I'm separating myself from people whom I've known for long periods of time. Though what you would define as long is beyond me. Everything seems to go so quickly now.
I actually cannot wait for summer. I'm going to spend the majority of it indoors, lots of it with Rachel, some of it writing, and the rest of it with the rest of yous whom I don't mind quite so much. Methinks that the evil one is having a little too much to say here but hey.
I have a poster in my room that I made. I'm not sure whether I should be sharing the meaning of it with you all but who cares. It's coloured entirely in black, with a small rectangle of white paper in the middle containing various shapes inside. It's supposed to be representative of my interior. Unfortunately, the only part I show is from the rectangular centre. It's a little room containing all the things close to me. It stands to reason that everything outside is simply
Black.

Confusion, madness, muffins.

life closes a few doors for some people and opens a window
life opens a door for me but closes all the windows
how am i supposed to know how to feel anymore
i worry that i might be in too deep, or doing somethign wrong
the only thing i know is that some part of me, likes you.

the only thing is i don't know whether it is strong enough to fight back the egotism the paranoia the chaos that swamps my head normally

hell i have to be egotistical sometimes
its the only thing that can ground whats inside to whats outside
the paranoia certainly doesn't

on a side note this muffin still tastes good after being left out for three days
HURRAH FOR MODERN PRESERVITIVES